WHAT I WANT...??

THIS FEW DAYS...
What I really wan.pain and sadness in my heart..I feels them alot.I think no need to b e pain anymore..I really can`t stand of it anymore..I give up on myself,its because i really cant fought of it.What am I fight of...??Am i success..??I think im success..just in job only.But with out love im lose...but why..??all my journey and story got connect to love..im just like missing..where to go...??wat to do...?why are like this...???when im gonna make it...??question question...hate question..bull shit question....
All the question always pop out day by days..im very annoying of this anymore...but how am i gonna solve tis question...Why i cant explain to them..Why they can claim down n listen to me...I also have my hardness..Can u just listen to me...??i know keep to many hardness n question in me are hard to solve of the pain i had ever been through...I try my best to get over it..Just please let me go...Im just like a sick person...i look onto other people,why they can solve their problem so easy,why cant i...??Mayb i should play love...??or just be play boy...??
But i really cant ok...this gt meaning..and its and history...i can feel the pain...damn
what a stupid ah,heavin a girlfriend truely got that hard...??I truely cant let go in the relationship...this gives me alot of feeling that i got..My memories are suck..damn shit hole..its over.but i just think like just happen few min o few days only....im feel like im getting old enough..Promises..mayb they are fake...mayb just for fun.that all...
I hope someone could him me on face veli hard...let me feel the other pain to solve my heart pain...im gonna b crazy to think of this thing..but in my heart they truely veli pain at all...why why why.......??how can i solve...??how....??