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Today once again...the plugs move on...left one more plug at BSB...guess she bu suang also..have fun didn`t find her...WAHAHAHA!!all together 3-pin plugs...after few more weeks we all gonna be our own lorrr....Mina going uk, zamal...??still thinking... rachel study uni....for me...???work offshore lagi.... maybe I`m gonna be more alone liaw...SNIFF SNIFF....HAIZZ!!...sad sad sad....seem like so fast,the time gonna past already...



WHAT TO DOOOOOOOO!! GUYSSSSS................

life on STRESS

Why am i that stress...??

I think i`m really too stress already....how to express my feeling...??

STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS

I taught this type of pain don`t got happen again all over me,but I was wrong..damn!!......memories...too hard for me.I really can`t stop think of it...."WHY HAVE YOU BE THAT SELFISH...??IF YOU WANT TO HAVE THE PAIN GET IT YOURSELF"I`m sick and tired already....you yourself can be easily go it on...but think of me plz, can i be that easy...??I`m different o.k...

I don`t know why have the god fool me around like this.Is it too funny huh...??I just feel like, In this world i`m just playing"HIDE AND SEEK"Plz....stop this stupid games anymore o.k...you want to play,go find other people to play with,I`m always a loser...You can make me like I really scared of it..YA! I`m scared....but why..??I don`t wan it too be like this.......I feel like my happy life getting less and less...less happiness make me sick....can you make me happy forever again...??I don`t want to SUFFER anymore...


please la...I really hope can get your respond from you....I beg from you o.k.....??



thanx you,

Feeling inside me..

One day past one day...still got the same feeling...who really can know how`s my feeling...??happy thing is....got people always say"aya!! we knows..."But they really can know,how`s my feeling...Everytime i always have this stupid question...too much question inside me..I was wondering how can i solve it...

Before I use too be not..and now I`m really different.Pain too much...i just get to suffer it....this is just like a game...maybe.....GAME OVER....YOU LOSE...I don`t think its fun at all..Its really tired for me to move on...I don`t want it to be a games...PLZ...Feel like im been(_ _ _ _)....am i really look like a clown....???Stop it....

Everyday same question pop out...same thing happen....I don`t know why am i dont want to tell anyone of it...I really don`t want you all to get suffer....for sure it`ll be pain too....I rather choose to suffer myself then letting you all to get suffer....you happy then i`m happy too.....I know i`m very wired of look like this...sometime i really hope you all could understand me....human sometime will done wrong thing...I`m also like that too...But i think back...ya! i got wrong also....when im wrong i stay to be quiet!!..my brain just keep solving thing.....

should i tell o not...??I tell,it will hurt you....I don`t then it ll hurt us....HAIZZ!!

Lastly,hope you all really can understand me.....I really can`t efford it....I don`t like to hurt people feeling...If for fun then i`ll...

TQ.

Feeling inside me..

One day past one day...still got the same feeling...who really can know how`s my feeling...??happy thing is....got people always say"aya!! we knows..."But they really can know,how`s my feeling...Everytime i always have this stupid question...too much question inside me..I was wondering how can i solve it...

Before I use too be not..and now I`m really different.Pain too much...i just get to suffer it....this is just like a game...maybe.....GAME OVER....YOU LOSE...I don`t think its fun at all..Its really tired for me to move on...I don`t want it to be a games...PLZ...Feel like im been(_ _ _ _)....am i really look like a clown....???Stop it....

Everyday same question pop out...same thing happen....I don`t know why am i dont want to tell anyone of it...I really don`t want you all to get suffer....for sure it`ll be pain too....I rather choose to suffer myself then letting you all to get suffer....you happy then i`m happy too.....I know i`m very wired of look like this...sometime i really hope you all could understand me....human sometime will done wrong thing...I`m also like that too...But i think back...ya! i got wrong also....when im wrong i stay to be quiet!!..my brain just keep solving thing.....

should i tell o not...??I tell,it will hurt you....I don`t then it ll hurt us....HAIZZ!!

Lastly,hope you all really can understand me.....I really can`t efford it....I don`t like to hurt people feeling...If for fun then i`ll...

TQ.

Why im become BAD

I`M SAD

I`M DEPRESS

I`M EMO

I`M SICK & TIRED

I`M SCARED

I`M TOO CRAZY

I`M TOO MATURE

I`M TOO LOSER

TOO MUCH EXPRESSION

LOST TOO MUCH

TOO EVIL

TOO MUCH THINKING OF FAILURE

I HATE MYSELF

MY FEELING DOWN

HATE EVERYTHING

WHY IM BECOME BAD....??ITS BECAUSE I WANNA REALLY RELEASE THE STRESS..


ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!

am I mature...??

DO I MATURE....???
YES!I`m:ANS

I don`t think I`m not mature lor!!
I know alot of thing,i look alot in this world,I know why.
We got feeling to tell us is this true or fake.
Words can be true,can be fake.
But for me words that I`ve say it out i 80% ll go do it.
Bad..??is it not mature..??NO i don`t think so....
Words that say it out,but never gonna show it out.that truely not mature.
Words that are fake then it`s not mature,Words that are real then its mature.
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words to new driver

NEW DRIVER

Don`t drive to fast

Be patience coz you all still new in the world.

Not fun but sometimes it`s SCARRY.

Night driving,Don`t worries,just relax.

Don`t flash to much high light.

Open your eyes big big.

Don`t to rush.

Check car water,m-oil and clutch&break oil.Before go.

people drive fast don`t go chase them,let them.

While driving don`t play much phone to much while driving,unless you are pro.

If you are late,don`t rush it,coz you still new.Late is nevermind , as long as you drive safe.

Don`t worrie of ACCIDENT,every driver ll have it.Must be prepare.

Lastly:STOP LOOK GO!!

words to my parent(IM SORRY)

DADDY & MUMMY....

1.I`m so sorry to being like this ok.I know you both very worries of me going out everytime..I`m so srry of getting smoking n make tattoo...I can feel it,but i really dont know what can i do.I`m to stress of this.I really don`t want both of you old folks too much worries about me.I hope i really can be free.Hope both of you can understand me.I can`t express to much infront of you.

2.I won`t make myself regret on what i`ve did.I SMOKE,DRINK alot.I just want to find happiness.i want to throw all my stress n patience in my life.I everyday feel so depress on my life.I kept alot of words,depress & patience(keep to much words).

3.I know alot,I can look alot of what is good and what is bad.I know alot of thing.I`ve think too much and look alot on this world.Know alot of good and bad friend.I won`t fail both of your face.I can do it by myself.Im old enough too think.

4.Before I use to play alot,do alot of think that both of you don`t like.But now I think back,say:ya i`m very stupid.

5.The words I really wanna tell you is that.I`M REALLY SORRY...I LOVE YOU.

WHY...??

Why the thing happen to me...??am my heart to weak already...??i cnt think of anything anymore..In my mind just that I really miss you(_ _ _ _)Im so sorry to say alot of thing that i use to not to say to you,I so regret to say all this to you...now i feel like we really far apart.everyday i wake,open my eyes i just think of you..I really cant give up on you,I really need you.You can say im the stupid one.This 3 week im on land,the 3day i saw you but i was very scared and all..I just feel like playin hide and seek,I know im very unfair to you..I`M REALLY SORRY.....
I`ve hurt you alot,I`m so sorry.I so hope dont want to play this hide and seek games anymore PLZ...??I`m tired of this games now.

FIGHT FOR WAT I HAD DREAM

I have A BLADE....i wont regret it...my memories..hope i can use this to help me...fight till end of my life..hope u can bring me more luck and get what i want...hope my parent wont know..im so sorry parent...hope this can bring me more luck....plz.....hope all my wish and everything i had dream ll come true......

yesterday

Miri...yesterday.....alittle borin..but i get what i want already...3 hrs movies..??Borin..not so understand what the movies talkin about...mayb i didnt read the book so.....not so much get intrested on...drive to miri....i was ok already on miri road...just scared it accident...not my car...nevermind..next year 2010 i`ll wanna get a simple car....have my own car is better thn usein my dead car...i dont care...what lauzy car i use...as long its transport..hehhehhe:p..yesterday get wat i wan already...i`m happy with it...i wont regret...hope tis thing can bring my luck upon...hope i can success in alot of thing in my mind....

SILLENT TEARS

LONELINESS YOUR SILENT WHISPER
FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS
THROUGH THE NIGHT
MEMORY YOU NEVER LET ME CRY
AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOOD-BYE
SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE
WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY
BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES
NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE

TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE
SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY
LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY
ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART

The One You((Likes)) & The One You((loves))

Never leave the one you [{LOVE}]

for the one you ((LIKE))

Because the one you (LIKE) will leave you

for the one they[{LOVE}]

The one you ((LIKE)) will give you goosebumps;

the one you [{LOVE}] will make you laugh

and send shivers down your spine.

When the one you ((LIKE)) cries, you feel sorry for them;

but when the one you [{LOVE}] cries, you cry for them.

True Love Doesnt Have A Happy Ending

BECAUSE True [{LOVE}] Never Ends

BECAUSE OF WHAT

I dont know why,because of what...? why am i like this..??Because of what...??
Because of what..??I`ve plan alot..
Because of what..??I`ve change my life...??
Because of what..??I`ve be myself..??
Becase of what..??I`ve learn alot..??
Because of what..??Today my life still be that suck...?
Because of what..??All my altitude have change...??
Because of what..?? I`ll be there 4 you...??
Because of what...??I want you back..??
Because of what..??I`ve turn back..?
Because of what..??I still remember everything you have said..??
Because of what..??We got nothing to say..??
Because of what..??We seem look like a stranger..??
Because of what..??I`ve made so much PROMISED..??
Because of what..??I`ve fought alot..??
Because of what..??Our life is difference..??
Because of what..??I`ve get the thing that you really need it..??
Because of what..??Why my words have to be real..??
Because of what.??Why your words can`t be serious..??
Because of what..??you cannot be with me..??
Because of what..??We have to play hide n seek..??
Because of what..??I don`t wan to be a friends..??
Because of what..??Because of what..??Because of what..??Because of what..??Because of what..?
Because of what..??I really need you in my life..??

I know you didnt change..But don`t be like tat plz..You knnow how much i really need you..You knw how much i cares 4 you...Plz don`t go....I really need you....:'(

STORY

A TRUE STORY
My story,happy,sad,stupid,memories,Lie,Question and loneliness..
without happy,what should i do..??
I`m sad,what should i do...??
Am i very stupid at all..??
What happen to my memories..?
What are lies...??
What is a question..??
Loneliness,what can i do..??


My story always end up on sad and loneliness..Never have an happy ending.I don`t know i`m PROUD of myself or what....I use to make alot and try to built on myself.But at last i really didn`t get anything..I don`t wan to foolin around already..I just feel like my time really not enough...What is the wrong I`m now...I just know that im lost in this world..I got no power now at all to stand up..No music,friend and love1 to cheers me up...I feel so lonely..I was hopping my time go fast fast,4get wat i really can,Memories are suck...now i hate my memories...I`m truely to weak already...what i have did alot...who do understand me..??Am i really don`t know hows the world look like...??Are they nw cheating on me..?Am i truely a clown...??Or just a soccer ball..??Just letting ppls have fun...?

I got so many question in my mind...Thinking how to solve it...??In hurting....pain....im just like gone...I hate question alot...But sometime i like it.I use to be silence and listen to what other people answer..I like to take some knowledge from people opinion...

Loneliness...I feel alot...In working i like`s it...But on free time i don`t wan it to be like loneliness...I scared of loneliness in my life..

My life story just like an empty tanks fill with nothing..unreasonable...sad story.....

WHAT I WANT...??

THIS FEW DAYS...
What I really wan.pain and sadness in my heart..I feels them alot.I think no need to b e pain anymore..I really can`t stand of it anymore..I give up on myself,its because i really cant fought of it.What am I fight of...??Am i success..??I think im success..just in job only.But with out love im lose...but why..??all my journey and story got connect to love..im just like missing..where to go...??wat to do...?why are like this...???when im gonna make it...??question question...hate question..bull shit question....
All the question always pop out day by days..im very annoying of this anymore...but how am i gonna solve tis question...Why i cant explain to them..Why they can claim down n listen to me...I also have my hardness..Can u just listen to me...??i know keep to many hardness n question in me are hard to solve of the pain i had ever been through...I try my best to get over it..Just please let me go...Im just like a sick person...i look onto other people,why they can solve their problem so easy,why cant i...??Mayb i should play love...??or just be play boy...??
But i really cant ok...this gt meaning..and its and history...i can feel the pain...damn
what a stupid ah,heavin a girlfriend truely got that hard...??I truely cant let go in the relationship...this gives me alot of feeling that i got..My memories are suck..damn shit hole..its over.but i just think like just happen few min o few days only....im feel like im getting old enough..Promises..mayb they are fake...mayb just for fun.that all...
I hope someone could him me on face veli hard...let me feel the other pain to solve my heart pain...im gonna b crazy to think of this thing..but in my heart they truely veli pain at all...why why why.......??how can i solve...??how....??

life..

LIFE

• why are life so difficult...??
• what do we can do to face the true life...??
• where we can spent our life(young&old)...??
• when is the right time we gonna spent our life..??
• Is life just a games...??on what..??
• some people life have a great time..?
• some people can make themself feel better in life..
• some people cannot think of other people life...
• some people share on their life with others...
• life is it so important...??
• how to spend our life...??
• one person,when they can start their own life..??
• do we respect our life...??

BUT for me...what is my life...??


LIfe..i felt so complicated...sometime im gonna be crazy of it..they can be happiness,sadness,annoying,staborn,intresting,curious,an etc...I start my life on when im on work...2007..i feel so hard to have my life...everything is to work and get$$..and find true love and haf a family..that all...Last time whn i start think of this question,is very funny at all..my answer for life is...whn grown up thn will getting older..thn older liaw,then die...x_x...that all bye bye life....But nw i face the real life now..its my real life...i find alot of hardness on life..every job i did to get earning are very hard...working is the 1st life i have to face on..its very hard n difficulty to built everything..I`ve try alot is have related to my heart..my happines,is the best way to solve my life problem..if happiness is gone..then my life is gone..im become moody..alone..just like stay in a dark room...i hate people call me loser...i dont mind what peopls look on my side of view..just think its right to do it then i`ll gain my price...

life are important,cuase every human have onli 1 life...i believe that when we are dead..we ll gain our life back again..maybe a human or maybe an animal or maybe a nature...its hard to say...god is looking on us...what we do everyday.make mistake then hard to release on the gods hand...God are powerful..but we human still can fight for it..I fought to alot of thing that alot of people said,useless...but now i have try already..Something i have gain and i`ve win..but sure will have something lost.If we win alot then god will take something froom us.Sometime i hate god..because they jealous what i have done that he is loseing..

Loser..Hate u god...If u can don`t be jealous,can you let me free...??don`t take what i really want ok....??pls. let my life be free..don`t hide my life under an heavy stone ok..Plz..Release me ok...??I want freedom and my love I really love her with all my heart...PLZ...

relationship..

RELATIONSHIP

Dream are just come n goes,plan are just non-stop planing.
Day past days,everythin become a history.
I walked on my journey,everytime i want to laughing here and there.
Every little thing for me are intresting.
Memories....??i have, is very sweet..tasted very good.
I hope the god dont play with me again.........

In relationship,I feel is an easy thing.I had this feelin when I was in pri.6 when my friend start loving someone,he attract me joint in the love feeling.At that time,I also get crazy in love wif a girl.she is pretty,but hopeless.I just chase her like normal,till form1 then i give up.i know it could be.After when I was frm2 I get in love with another girl.My 1st love.sShe was beautiful,pretty&careful.we had been through 2 years almost 3 yrs.At the begining we really love eachother.But after she went school..she just liaw scared she getting stress because of love..so she let go of the relationship.After2yrs plus has pass already.I met another pretty young girl,her name called lily.our relationship is just like 1day.very curious right..??I also can`t imagine i met a girl she really do there cares for me.so i was just melt for her.we use to make alot of memories.everywhere(places)every journey we walk everyday i make it in my future.But now,we break also.i taught me and her are truely lover.But just only 1 mistake just a small mistake.she can let me go.in my heart really unfair.why could it be happen just like this...??I`ve did all my best to cheer her up.......(my story not yet end its because i not yet give on her)