WHAT I WANT...??

THIS FEW DAYS...
What I really wan.pain and sadness in my heart..I feels them alot.I think no need to b e pain anymore..I really can`t stand of it anymore..I give up on myself,its because i really cant fought of it.What am I fight of...??Am i success..??I think im success..just in job only.But with out love im lose...but why..??all my journey and story got connect to love..im just like missing..where to go...??wat to do...?why are like this...???when im gonna make it...??question question...hate question..bull shit question....
All the question always pop out day by days..im very annoying of this anymore...but how am i gonna solve tis question...Why i cant explain to them..Why they can claim down n listen to me...I also have my hardness..Can u just listen to me...??i know keep to many hardness n question in me are hard to solve of the pain i had ever been through...I try my best to get over it..Just please let me go...Im just like a sick person...i look onto other people,why they can solve their problem so easy,why cant i...??Mayb i should play love...??or just be play boy...??
But i really cant ok...this gt meaning..and its and history...i can feel the pain...damn
what a stupid ah,heavin a girlfriend truely got that hard...??I truely cant let go in the relationship...this gives me alot of feeling that i got..My memories are suck..damn shit hole..its over.but i just think like just happen few min o few days only....im feel like im getting old enough..Promises..mayb they are fake...mayb just for fun.that all...
I hope someone could him me on face veli hard...let me feel the other pain to solve my heart pain...im gonna b crazy to think of this thing..but in my heart they truely veli pain at all...why why why.......??how can i solve...??how....??

life..

LIFE

• why are life so difficult...??
• what do we can do to face the true life...??
• where we can spent our life(young&old)...??
• when is the right time we gonna spent our life..??
• Is life just a games...??on what..??
• some people life have a great time..?
• some people can make themself feel better in life..
• some people cannot think of other people life...
• some people share on their life with others...
• life is it so important...??
• how to spend our life...??
• one person,when they can start their own life..??
• do we respect our life...??

BUT for me...what is my life...??


LIfe..i felt so complicated...sometime im gonna be crazy of it..they can be happiness,sadness,annoying,staborn,intresting,curious,an etc...I start my life on when im on work...2007..i feel so hard to have my life...everything is to work and get$$..and find true love and haf a family..that all...Last time whn i start think of this question,is very funny at all..my answer for life is...whn grown up thn will getting older..thn older liaw,then die...x_x...that all bye bye life....But nw i face the real life now..its my real life...i find alot of hardness on life..every job i did to get earning are very hard...working is the 1st life i have to face on..its very hard n difficulty to built everything..I`ve try alot is have related to my heart..my happines,is the best way to solve my life problem..if happiness is gone..then my life is gone..im become moody..alone..just like stay in a dark room...i hate people call me loser...i dont mind what peopls look on my side of view..just think its right to do it then i`ll gain my price...

life are important,cuase every human have onli 1 life...i believe that when we are dead..we ll gain our life back again..maybe a human or maybe an animal or maybe a nature...its hard to say...god is looking on us...what we do everyday.make mistake then hard to release on the gods hand...God are powerful..but we human still can fight for it..I fought to alot of thing that alot of people said,useless...but now i have try already..Something i have gain and i`ve win..but sure will have something lost.If we win alot then god will take something froom us.Sometime i hate god..because they jealous what i have done that he is loseing..

Loser..Hate u god...If u can don`t be jealous,can you let me free...??don`t take what i really want ok....??pls. let my life be free..don`t hide my life under an heavy stone ok..Plz..Release me ok...??I want freedom and my love I really love her with all my heart...PLZ...

relationship..

RELATIONSHIP

Dream are just come n goes,plan are just non-stop planing.
Day past days,everythin become a history.
I walked on my journey,everytime i want to laughing here and there.
Every little thing for me are intresting.
Memories....??i have, is very sweet..tasted very good.
I hope the god dont play with me again.........

In relationship,I feel is an easy thing.I had this feelin when I was in pri.6 when my friend start loving someone,he attract me joint in the love feeling.At that time,I also get crazy in love wif a girl.she is pretty,but hopeless.I just chase her like normal,till form1 then i give up.i know it could be.After when I was frm2 I get in love with another girl.My 1st love.sShe was beautiful,pretty&careful.we had been through 2 years almost 3 yrs.At the begining we really love eachother.But after she went school..she just liaw scared she getting stress because of love..so she let go of the relationship.After2yrs plus has pass already.I met another pretty young girl,her name called lily.our relationship is just like 1day.very curious right..??I also can`t imagine i met a girl she really do there cares for me.so i was just melt for her.we use to make alot of memories.everywhere(places)every journey we walk everyday i make it in my future.But now,we break also.i taught me and her are truely lover.But just only 1 mistake just a small mistake.she can let me go.in my heart really unfair.why could it be happen just like this...??I`ve did all my best to cheer her up.......(my story not yet end its because i not yet give on her)